So Why AM I Torturing Myself?
This question has popped into my mind several times today as I have been actively abstaining from Coffee. I can tell you for sure that I will not be off coffee forever, why? because quite frankly I love the stuff! The last time I quit it was about 15 years ago, about three months before I became pregnant with my son. I did not have any caffeine period the whole time I was pregnant, to include chocolate. Coffee was however, the only thing I craved, dreamed of, and couldn't wait to have again once I was finished with the whole birthing/nursing experience. I stayed off it for 2 years until I stopped nursing, then the first thing I did was go out and buy a Mocha at my favorite local coffee shop.
I mostly want to stop because I have been down to one cup a day for awhile now and wanted to just take a break while it would be relatively easy to do so. I know from stopping before just how powerful caffeine addiction is, it really is a drug. One you don't realize the potency of until you get off it. I figure that this is as good a time as ever to stop, especially since my surgery is coming up. I mean truly, if I want to be as healthy as I can be, then this is the way to do it. It's not because of my ECG. I'm convinced it is fine now afer talking with my doctor. I'm just taking a break from Coffee and caffeine, until after my surgery because I want to see if doing things right with this surgery makes a difference in my healing. It is actually more of a scientific experiment then anything else. :)
I had to go to the dentist this afternoon to have a cavity filled. I have found that as I get older I have less and less tolerance for the sound of the drill. I mean it really freaks me out! So much so in fact that I worry one day I might go postal in the dentist chair. I don't know what it is about it but the sounds just makes me psycho. I'm thinking I'm going to start asking for nitrous and some headphones so I don't have to hear that terrible noise! I sit in the chair, stiff as a board, talking in my head like the little engine that could...."you can do this, don't freak out, its only a drill, you can do this, its almost over, breathe, breathe breathe"
By the time I'm finished I feel like I was run over by a truck! I'm exhausted! It's the weirdest thing! I have never been like this!
I mostly want to stop because I have been down to one cup a day for awhile now and wanted to just take a break while it would be relatively easy to do so. I know from stopping before just how powerful caffeine addiction is, it really is a drug. One you don't realize the potency of until you get off it. I figure that this is as good a time as ever to stop, especially since my surgery is coming up. I mean truly, if I want to be as healthy as I can be, then this is the way to do it. It's not because of my ECG. I'm convinced it is fine now afer talking with my doctor. I'm just taking a break from Coffee and caffeine, until after my surgery because I want to see if doing things right with this surgery makes a difference in my healing. It is actually more of a scientific experiment then anything else. :)
I had to go to the dentist this afternoon to have a cavity filled. I have found that as I get older I have less and less tolerance for the sound of the drill. I mean it really freaks me out! So much so in fact that I worry one day I might go postal in the dentist chair. I don't know what it is about it but the sounds just makes me psycho. I'm thinking I'm going to start asking for nitrous and some headphones so I don't have to hear that terrible noise! I sit in the chair, stiff as a board, talking in my head like the little engine that could...."you can do this, don't freak out, its only a drill, you can do this, its almost over, breathe, breathe breathe"
By the time I'm finished I feel like I was run over by a truck! I'm exhausted! It's the weirdest thing! I have never been like this!
posted by Brandyleigh35 @ 7:19 PM
1 Comments:
At 12:59 PM,
Mrs. Shanton said…
Then stay away from alcohol. I'm convinced it's a poison that will adversely affect healing. But coffee? You're hard core. OK. Good luck.
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